It has been way too long since I have last written but, life happens. :) I've definitely had some crazy times in the past couple months. October came and went, I didn't get to do anything for Halloween which is very sad because it is one of my favorite holidays. Next year though, my boyfriend and I WILL be getting dressed up and going to a Halloween party. I can't wait to do couple costumes. <3 Thanksgiving was amazing like every year. I love that turkey dinner! Christmas was nice, we got to watch the kids open their presents. Next year I will have my own little one opening presents! It is very exciting to think about.
This new year started off a little complicated. New years night didn't exactly go as I had planned. Unfortunately I didn't get my new year's kiss which I had be looking forward to all night long. :/ Octavio and I had been fighting like crazy. I thought it was bad before but, it had gotten worse. Recently we had some well needed time apart. He went hunting with his friends and I went out with friends. It was nice to get away but, I realized how much I missed him not being there. He was all I thought about and I wanted him back so badly. I hated him being away, I felt lost without him. When he got back, we had a very long emotional talk about everything. It was what we needed at the time and since then everything has been fine. I'm getting happier everyday knowing that we are both trying to make this work. Not just for the baby but, for us.
With the baby coming soon its really starting to become reality and I think we've both realized it. I know I would be fine taking care of my son alone but, I really don't want to. He needs his daddy just as much as he needs his mommy. It is so comforting knowing that my relationship with Octavio is getting better. I never stopped loving him but, it seemed like we weren't going anywhere. We decided to forget the past and burn everything in it. We don't need to focus on the future because it will always be a mystery. The only thing we need to worry about is what is happening right now. So far, its been working.
My NewYear's resolution is to live everyday like it is my last. I don't want to hold grudges or keep anything inside. I'm moving on and living in the moment. I will laugh, smile and be happy more. I will look at the good in every crappy situation. I will be more confident and walk with my head up. My baby boy will be here soon and I will do everything I can to make sure he grows up with the confidence he needs to just be himself. Honestly, it is the best way to live. <3
Baby Facts:
I am 31 weeks.
He is the right size and everything looks perfect.
Baby shower invites were finished today and will sent out by the weekend.
Things are getting better. :)
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